Tongue-taming

"Everytime you hurt someone by your words, you hurt me the most"

These are the very words God whispered to me this morning as I was begging him to talk to me.

We have this exercise in our group wherein everyone is encouraged to listen to the voice of God especially when you wake up in the morning. Because according to them, the very first thought that comes to mind when you wake up is the word of God.

I must admit, the very first thing I did upon waking up today was to pray, asking God for everything that I want on this day.

While I was on the bus on my way to work, I remember this exercise we have regarding the voice of God. Then I realized that I didn't have one. And I realized that I didn't have one because I didn't give God the chance to talk to me. Because all I did upon waking up was to tell Him what I want, without even asking Him what He wants for me to do today.

And so again I prayed. I begged, begged and begged for God to talk to me. While doing this, my attention was shifted to all my "busmates", as expected most of them are locals.

Thoughts about my "busmates" filled my mind..how I hate them, how dirty they are, etc, etc...then my eyes turned to one woman wearing a cap, the ones construction men normally wear at work. And in a snap, disgust turned to admiration. I have never seen a "construction woman" in my own country.

Then a whisper came: "next time be very careful on how you think about your fellowmen so you won't "eat" your own words."

Voila! Voice of God!

I then recalled the dream I had last night and the time when I was reading the Gospel this morning:

My dream last night:
I had a fight with a friend and the one scene that keeps coming back to mind is the part where I wanted to talk evil words to express my anger but I stopped myself. And in the dream, a message was so clear: the bad words you will say will never fix the problem, it will just worsen and may cause regrets later on.

Reading the Gospel:
I normally read the Daily Gospel in the morning before going to work. In the Daily Gospel, there will always be a reflection but for me, I never read the reflection because I would want to reflect on my own first without the influence of someone else's reflection. But this morning was different, I read the reflection. And while I was reading it, I was thinking there got to be something for me that God wants to tell me. After reading the reflection, I thought it was so far from the Gospel, there was no connection at all. But the thought of the last few sentences never escaped me. It said something like everytime you say bad words, you are hurting God.

Back to the bus: All these thoughts of my dream last night and today's Gospel reflection from the daily Gospel came back.

And it then became very clear to me:

God doesn't like it when His children speak ill of his/her brothers and sisters. Not even in our thoughts because God hears.

If only we can live a life with only one ultimate goal which is to love God, everything will follow.

God's Will

Let me share a part of my email which I sent to one of my brothers in my community this morning:

I firmly believe in God's will and that whatever He wills, walang makakaharang non. It will always prevail. There may be bumps in the course of making things done but if you really think about it, based on past experiences, His will always prevail at the end.

God is a loving God...I trust that whatever He allows to happen along the way of making His will done, maganda man or masama sa paningin ng tao, at the end we will all realize that everything was allowed to happen for a good purpose. His plans are always the best and Knowing God, He will always be after the best of His people.

I believe that ano man ang pagdadaanan ng tao on the way to the realization of God's plans, all those will only result into one thing, the person will always come out good. But then, this requires a very strong faith on the part of Man.

From the beginning, we have already been given the gift of freewill. And God will be requiring us to use this gift during the course of making His plans for us to happen. That's where our strong Faith, Belief and Trust in God come in. Ano man ang kahinatnan ng tao out of the choices he make, makikita pa rin natin, God's will prevails.

Those are the things revealed to me by God while reading the Bible. I have come to learn that God is also a persistent God. If He wills it, it's considered done from the beginning.

One more thing, if God allows it to happen, it only means one thing, it is for the good of His children.

I had a Dream...

Two nights ago, I had a dream. At first I found it weird. But as days went by thinking about it, I finally was able to gather my interpretations. But before that, let me share what this dream was all about.

The scene: Lively. Full of music that I can't identify. It wasn't the usual upbeat music that we usually hear during parties. But all I am sure of is it was a happy, festive moment. At least that was the feeling I had. And it seemed to me that I was somewhere on top, a feeling being above the earth (weird, I know). One of the leaders of the community where I belong (let's call her sis Peng) handed me a paper telling me that I will be one of the speakers in our monthly activity called Treasures.

Next scene: I just came into the venue. I was still wondering what topic to discuss. I tried scanning the paper that sis peng gave me. the word FAITH came into the picture, then i heard someone saying: if FAITH is to be the topic, that would be so easy for me since I have more than enough of it. It would then be so easy to discuss. I started to run and I remember telling God, just tell me what you want me to say and I felt His assurance that He will be my words. But then I said, it's not FAITH. I continued flipping the paper then I saw the words: You're My Number 1. Exactly written that way.

Next scene: Sis peng was furious asking me where I came from. Then I remember telling her that i was just in the Chapel contemplating in my would-be topic. This time the scene remained festive and I remember seeing everyone eating shrimps. The speaker who was supposed to be speaking next to me was already busy preparing for his turn. he asked sis peng if it was his turn to speak, sis peng said: "siya na, nakaahon na siya eh" referring to me.

Next scene, sis peng was giving me instructions on how to do it. Then i was practicing the whole thing as sis peng instructed. One thing was very clear: part of my speech was to say: if i will be blessed with 5Million (in between the crowd was asking USD, VND or PESO?), how would I spend it? The message behind it was to be, should I be blessed with 5Million, God should be my number 1 on the list to spend it on.

Alarm Clock goes off. End of the dream.

Now here's my interpretation:

1. On Faith, for me it is true, I have a very strong faith in God.
2. On 5Million, I may not have 5Million USD or Peso but I must say, we have been blessed enough.

I can never forget this line: "siya na, nakaahon na siya eh"

Therefore, God was telling me: I know you have enough Faith, i know that, but there's one thing I wanna ask from you. Being blessed, please share these blessings with me as number 1 reason for sharing.

There's one statement of God that I have read where He said: Help my workers. This line never left my heart and mind since i've read it. This could be it.

What do you think?

Thank God It's Wednesday!

Yeah, it's my day! Thank you Lord for the wonderful gift of a wonderful life...

And still...thank you for the gift of wisdom...

This morning, as hubs was telling my daughter to greet mommy a happy birthday, she wouldn't! For her it is mommy's and byko's birthday together... no matter how everyone in the house tried, she wouldn't give in...she insisted that it's our birthday together.

But then I realized that she's actually right! The first time I laid my eyes on her, I could only say thank you God for the gift of life.

And every single day with my little one, I am thanking God for the gift of life because of her presence in my life. So it's like her birthday everyday! hmmmm...makes sense.

Today is indeed our birthday together :)

Happy birthday mommy and byko!

God's Love

As always, I felt so blessed especially this morning being shown how much God loves me.

It happened when we were on our way to my friend's place. We were on a bus, my mom, hubs, daughter (carried by hubs) and myself. As hubs was trying to grab a seat, my daughter's left foot almost hit a man's face...Too bad I didn't have the chance to apologize in their behalf, or should i say, I didn't, despite the chance.

A few minutes after, a man was getting off the bus, passed through where i was seated and bang! hit my face. Right there and then, I realized.... boomerang! Then I thought, every mistake my daughter commits, comes back to me, then with all willingness I told myself, IT'S OK so long she's not harmed. Every mistake she commits I am willing to pay for it...so this is what they call a mother's love...

THEN IT HIT ME! This is how much God loves me and even more!

Every mistake i commit, He is more than willing to pay for it and suffer...And I realized how easy
it is for me to sin...it made me feel bad to realize that i am after all taking God's love for granted!

Then I thought about everything that I do which i know God disapproves of and found it so difficult to give up...damn!

Congratulations! to Me....

Yeah, i highly congratulate myself for finally being able to create a blog site where i can hopefully share my thoughts, wisdom, etc. which i believe are gifts that God gives me everyday...

I hope through blogging i will be able to glorify my God more than anyone or anything else....

May God grant me more wisdom or the gift of discernment and use me as an instrument to make all His messages for His people be known to them.

May He grant me the gift of persistence...no need to elaborate ;)

To God be the Glory...